Wednesday, May 25, 2011

REALLY???

I feel as though I should be writing deep, moving posts lately.  After all, I am processing a lot of emotions and quickly becoming comfortable with many new infertility treatments I swore off mere days ago.  But sometimes, when so much is going on, you just have to state the facts.  The rest of me seems too muddled and jumbled right now to do much more than simply state the facts.

So today, the fact is, that my body is REALLY pissing me off!  And, as the crazy infertile that I am, that talks to her someday children, trying to coax them down into her belly, I am now talking to chastising my body.  It plays out as a segment of SNL's weekend update:  Seth & Amy's REALLY? bit.

image via google images
Really, body?  You decide to resist the Clomid's effects, but still grow some follicles, and produce enough E2 for a good reading that brings relief and a smile?  Really?  You decide to let the follicles keep growing, but forget to fill them with eggs, as the plummeting second E2 reading shows, resulting in a canceled cycle?  Really?  And now, when we have counted this cycle as a wash--reproductively, financially, emotionally--you decide to produce a plethora of fertile fluid?  REALLY?  REALLY?

What's a girl to think, body?  You're kind of being an asshole!

hmmm . . . in light of all this fertile fluid do I start up OPK kits?  Make appointments?  Have baby sex?  Hope?   . . . so lost in all of this!

8 comments:

AJ said...

Visiting from ICLW! I really like the SNL shoutout and I totally feel that way about my body too. I'm sorry about this cycle. That Really is a bummer!!

Carlia said...

i LOVE the "really?!?" segments on SNL! i'm sorry your ovaries are misbehaving. i hope they get their act together soon!

thanks so much for stopping by my blog and commenting! it means so much to me when people do.

i look forward to following you on your journey! good luck!

bean dreams said...

Thanks ladies! Of course, it is a good thing that I am possibly ovulating. I just wish that I could have been saved the pain of a canceled cycle if ovulation was going to come. I also guess I just thought that meds helped right away. Now, it seems like we have do to a little dance to figure out which combo will really have the desired effect. I am not in the mood to dance with my meds and ovaries!

Look forward to following your journeys!

H said...

I absolutely hated Clomid and all of it's nasty side effects...BUT, if it helps make you ovulate, then it's totally worth it! Sometimes the meds do take awhile to work, we went through months of monitoring and all that before we found something that worked and I ovulated! It can be so frustrating, but keep your chin up, you can do it and it will be so worth it in the end!

Cattiz J said...

Thanks for stopping by my blog the other day.

Best of luck with finding the best combination that works. it's pretty frustration when you get to wait another cycle or being canceled.

Cyndi said...

I'm mad at my body too!

New Year Mum said...

Sorry to hear about your cancelled cycle... our bodies truly have a mind of their own sometimes !! Thinking of you always xoxo

newyearmum2blogspot.com

Cheapest WOW Gold said...

I ovulated! It could be so frustrating, but retain your chin up, you can perform it
What can we do when we have many boring free time? How about try to get access to the online games? When we talk about the game, we need to talk about the WOW Gold. As the WOW is the world's most famous online game,all of us knows that we have to get the Cheap WOW Gold
to save money !

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

REALLY???

I feel as though I should be writing deep, moving posts lately.  After all, I am processing a lot of emotions and quickly becoming comfortable with many new infertility treatments I swore off mere days ago.  But sometimes, when so much is going on, you just have to state the facts.  The rest of me seems too muddled and jumbled right now to do much more than simply state the facts.

So today, the fact is, that my body is REALLY pissing me off!  And, as the crazy infertile that I am, that talks to her someday children, trying to coax them down into her belly, I am now talking to chastising my body.  It plays out as a segment of SNL's weekend update:  Seth & Amy's REALLY? bit.

image via google images
Really, body?  You decide to resist the Clomid's effects, but still grow some follicles, and produce enough E2 for a good reading that brings relief and a smile?  Really?  You decide to let the follicles keep growing, but forget to fill them with eggs, as the plummeting second E2 reading shows, resulting in a canceled cycle?  Really?  And now, when we have counted this cycle as a wash--reproductively, financially, emotionally--you decide to produce a plethora of fertile fluid?  REALLY?  REALLY?

What's a girl to think, body?  You're kind of being an asshole!

hmmm . . . in light of all this fertile fluid do I start up OPK kits?  Make appointments?  Have baby sex?  Hope?   . . . so lost in all of this!

8 comments:

AJ said...

Visiting from ICLW! I really like the SNL shoutout and I totally feel that way about my body too. I'm sorry about this cycle. That Really is a bummer!!

Carlia said...

i LOVE the "really?!?" segments on SNL! i'm sorry your ovaries are misbehaving. i hope they get their act together soon!

thanks so much for stopping by my blog and commenting! it means so much to me when people do.

i look forward to following you on your journey! good luck!

bean dreams said...

Thanks ladies! Of course, it is a good thing that I am possibly ovulating. I just wish that I could have been saved the pain of a canceled cycle if ovulation was going to come. I also guess I just thought that meds helped right away. Now, it seems like we have do to a little dance to figure out which combo will really have the desired effect. I am not in the mood to dance with my meds and ovaries!

Look forward to following your journeys!

H said...

I absolutely hated Clomid and all of it's nasty side effects...BUT, if it helps make you ovulate, then it's totally worth it! Sometimes the meds do take awhile to work, we went through months of monitoring and all that before we found something that worked and I ovulated! It can be so frustrating, but keep your chin up, you can do it and it will be so worth it in the end!

Cattiz J said...

Thanks for stopping by my blog the other day.

Best of luck with finding the best combination that works. it's pretty frustration when you get to wait another cycle or being canceled.

Cyndi said...

I'm mad at my body too!

New Year Mum said...

Sorry to hear about your cancelled cycle... our bodies truly have a mind of their own sometimes !! Thinking of you always xoxo

newyearmum2blogspot.com

Cheapest WOW Gold said...

I ovulated! It could be so frustrating, but retain your chin up, you can perform it
What can we do when we have many boring free time? How about try to get access to the online games? When we talk about the game, we need to talk about the WOW Gold. As the WOW is the world's most famous online game,all of us knows that we have to get the Cheap WOW Gold
to save money !