Thursday, May 19, 2011

Canceled

My E2 level went from 389 to 52 in 2 days, meaning there will be no eggs.  Cycle canceled.  No more meds.  No more procedures.  No more chance.  I feel like I really can't say any more about it at this point.  I am still trying to soak in the news...trying to tell myself it would be naive to think things would go well the first time around, even though I didn't think it would go quite like this.  Trying not to think about the money we just shelled out, and very much trying not to think that it was all for nothing.  Trying to remember that crying or feeling just a little broken doesn't mean I am weak, it just means I am human and that I am a woman.  I am strong, and we are a strong couple, and we will get through it, albeit with tears and heavy hearts.

2 comments:

Liz said...

I just wanted to let you know I am your newest follower. I am so sorry your cycle was cancelled, sounds incredibly frustrating! Thinking of you...

bean dreams said...

Thanks Liz! I am emotional, but trying to remember to look forward. We'll make it! It is so nice to make another connection. I'll have to check out your blog as well!

Thursday, May 19, 2011

Canceled

My E2 level went from 389 to 52 in 2 days, meaning there will be no eggs.  Cycle canceled.  No more meds.  No more procedures.  No more chance.  I feel like I really can't say any more about it at this point.  I am still trying to soak in the news...trying to tell myself it would be naive to think things would go well the first time around, even though I didn't think it would go quite like this.  Trying not to think about the money we just shelled out, and very much trying not to think that it was all for nothing.  Trying to remember that crying or feeling just a little broken doesn't mean I am weak, it just means I am human and that I am a woman.  I am strong, and we are a strong couple, and we will get through it, albeit with tears and heavy hearts.

2 comments:

Liz said...

I just wanted to let you know I am your newest follower. I am so sorry your cycle was cancelled, sounds incredibly frustrating! Thinking of you...

bean dreams said...

Thanks Liz! I am emotional, but trying to remember to look forward. We'll make it! It is so nice to make another connection. I'll have to check out your blog as well!